Recently I have been evaluating different parts of the my life and through this process I have connected to the fact that our time is energy. What we spend our time doing, saying or with is all energy drawn around us and inside of us. Through this thought process, I find myself starting to set intentions on how I need to change my energy direction.
I've always been a helper and put others needs/feelings before my own since this fed my ego. The ego is not a bad thing, in fact we need our ego to guide us to new opportunities, challenges, etc., but it can be a road block when we use it to feed an empty void within ourselves. I found out I was caring too much about what others thought or needed from me that I really wasn't taking care of myself.
Lately my energy has felt burnt out and depleted. For a while, I felt lost with no where to turn but to continue to live this way. I wouldn't stand up for myself when I felt used or that my time (energy didn't matter). The simple truth is that is does! A dear friend of mine posted about taking care of others first, your friends will be there but when you take care of yourself first, they leave. I had the opportunity to discuss this with him more and we both have had the same realization that we'd rather have a few close friends who lifted our energy than a bunch who took away from it. With this knowledge, I'm finally standing up for myself and I've been taking time away from those who take my energy (time) for granted.
We have the notion in this country that taking time for ourselves is selfish. I've learned that there is a difference between caring for your energy and actual selfishness. Caring for yourself first, listening to your energy level and living from a space where you're cared for physically, mentally and emotionally is not a luxury but a necessity. We can't fully give to our life, family, friends and the world when we depleted, tired, on edge and feeling off balance. When we evaluate our time and make changes, we conserve our energy and bring in allowance to do things that help us become whole. This is self care and self love which you can never take to too much time for!
Now selfishness is a downward spiral that can lead some to addiction, co-dependency and other unhealthy issues. When a person is selfish, it means they're always searching to find their inner self in the exterior world. They'll use anyone or anything to find a moment of content or happiness and then start the process all over again. This need for exterior gratification leads them to take from others around them without noticing how their actions affect those they believe to care for. They'll do anything they want in that moment until something better comes that reaches them to the goal of quick enlightenment. This cycle will continue until you decide to stop it and no longer allow them to feed off your energy. Sadly, they will forever be on this journey and will take you along for the ride!
So now I ask you, do you feel the same way? What changes can you make right now to harness your energy? Dream big, small or in between but this is your life, your energy and your time to live the life you will!
After taking some time away for work travel and obligations, it feels refreshing to be able to come back to my teachings and share them on this blog!
This week we celebrated the moon in Lakshmi which is a wonderful reminder that spring is a fresh start to the road to abundance. Lakshmi represents the wealth, prosperity and abundance in ourselves and in our lives. Through her, we can see the beauty of the blossoming flowers and growth of nature that surrounds us everyday during this time of year.
She embodies the colors of the lower chakras and connects us to our root (red). Like the seeds that are starting to grow, we must find our roots in order to grow on our path to wealth and prosperity. These items, thoughts or feelings that we carry in our heart aren't able to grow if our roots aren't based in abundance. The question becomes, how do we find or create more abundance in our daily lives?
Abundance comes when we work towards living a life filled with gratitude. Once we're grateful for what we've been given from the divine, we can truly be blessed and happy with our lives. These things are simple. You're filled with life, love, nature, beauty souls to connect to and countless other reasons to be grateful. Lately, our society has been rooted in obstacles and negative stories so we must work to shift our root space to be more spacious, loving and thankful for what the divine has provided us so far.
So how do we start living in gratitude? The best way to step into this practice is write down three things each day that you're grateful for. It works best to create these lists in the morning and also set the intention of "I am." The "I am" can be followed by: living in this moment, not ruled by stress or fear, etc. By starting your day off in gratitude, you can move forward with your do lists, projects, and work with a sense of purpose and devotion. This practice also boosts happiness which the world needs more of!
After you get into the swing of writing down your three things you're grateful for, you can expand this practice to others by thanking someone for being in your life. You can write them a letter or give them a call to tell them you appreciate them. It's amazing the response you will get it!
The world is filled with abundance, love, wealth, prosperity and gratitude. We've been rooted to see the negative through social media, tv and more that we forget that this eternal love and happiness is right inside of us. My hope is you start your gratitude practice today and connect to your inner Lakshmi (abundance, wealth and prosperity).
This past weekend I had the wonderful opportunity to teach my Yoga for Women's Health workshop again. As I returned to my notes and practices, I found myself expanding the workshop and incorporated new teachings into the already enriched format. What I found was the connection to the Shakti Energy and the Divine Mother.
For those of you that have joined me for class over the past month, you’re aware of the connection to Saraswati as we transition deeper into spring. Lately I have been feeling like my life is on hold and that I’m stuck on a branch while traveling down the Saraswati river. I hear my heart screaming out it’s desire for change/growth and see the next stop on my journey, but it feels so out of reach like I’m in a holding pattern that I just can’t get out of.
So what is the answer to this feeling? The answer is to be content with where I am at on my lotus flower and slowly moving down the river of dreams. As we all know, this is a lot easier said than done. How can we stay positive in moments where we’re burnt out and have had enough? This is the struggle we deal with when our journey is in transition, so my teaching is for us is turn to the flow of Saraswati.
Saraswati is a beautiful symbol of the divine mother and she is here to guide us by tapping into our creativity, spirituality, knowledge and the part of us that has the ability to create beauty. She represents the things we wish to create in our life and she is the wisdom to know that we need this space of holding in order to appreciate what she provides to us next on our journey.
Like the river named after her, she flows on her white lotus flower and plays her lute to create and flow through life. Her beauty is un-matched and she is hard to touch just like the things we want most in our life. She carries with her the knowledge to know what is to come and has the symbol of a book to remind us to continue to learn and explore in order to grow.
Also, she reminds us that we’re never alone on this journey, so she travels along with a swan and peacock. The swan is a reminder of the beauty in life above the water. That our journey is beautiful when we take the time to look around, but underneath we’re pedaling away or gliding along to create the life destined for us. The peacock is also a symbol of beauty but it reminds us to keep our ego in check. That we can love ourselves, show our beauty but also have to remember to care for those around us and not try to engage them on a path they shouldn’t be on.
I always turn to Saraswati in times of uncertainty and transition to remind me that life is a continuous flow of good times and bad. In these moments, she reminds us to take a step back into self care and that our journey will unfold in front of us. This is key for people in the arts who need inspiration or even for those who want to explore what their creative side might be.
Today take time to connect to your own flow and energy to see where you’re at on your journey this spring. Remember to feed and nourish your seeds now so they will be ready to bloom!
Chant: Jai Saraswati Ma (Victory to the divine mother of knowledge, arts, creativity and science)
Lately I have been struggling with what the practice of yoga really is in our society. For some, it means to tone our body and release muscles in a hot room and for others it may be about finding a deeper connection to their self and embracing the power of our own voice.
As I turn to my truth and connect to my heart, I find it to be a mix of both. Over the past 8 years, my practice has transitioned into the unexplainable. How can I explain to someone who loves the physical practice that I only do the physical when my body craves it? That to me, my practice is to dance, sing, play harmonium, breathe, sit in a pose to learn to just be and to do tonal techniques not for the look of the muscle but to make my body stronger to help me take on the effects of working at a desk or being trapped in a car?
I’m finding as I tune into myself and teach what I practice that there are students out there searching like me and they’re ready for the practice that I bring them. I can only teach from my heart and find the souls who are ready for what I call the practice to awaken the soul. The practice to look deep within ones heart and ask the hard questions to find true freedom and to use holistic techniques to release the stress that has been allowed to build up in the body over the years.
So in the end, isn’t yoga about waking up the sleeping soul? Awakening to release all the stories, anxiety, stress and hopelessness that the world has presented us and to start to see the world in state of love. Every day is a challenge and a battle with ourselves but we should come to whatever part of yoga that speaks to us to find some sort of freedom or release whether it is physical or mental. To go beyond the Instagram postings, the need to show off power poses like handstand and to preach to the masses in a way that only turns the ego on instead of getting our truth out.
This blog will explore all accepts of yoga and answers that fateful question, how do you awaken a soul that has been sleeping so long? I look forward to sharing the truth about bhakti, the meaning of yoga and how we can get through this thing called life by being true to ourselves.
Music Reference: Sleeping Soul (Jive Jago)-Gaura Vani and As Kindred Spirits