Recently I have been evaluating different parts of the my life and through this process I have connected to the fact that our time is energy. What we spend our time doing, saying or with is all energy drawn around us and inside of us. Through this thought process, I find myself starting to set intentions on how I need to change my energy direction.
I've always been a helper and put others needs/feelings before my own since this fed my ego. The ego is not a bad thing, in fact we need our ego to guide us to new opportunities, challenges, etc., but it can be a road block when we use it to feed an empty void within ourselves. I found out I was caring too much about what others thought or needed from me that I really wasn't taking care of myself.
Lately my energy has felt burnt out and depleted. For a while, I felt lost with no where to turn but to continue to live this way. I wouldn't stand up for myself when I felt used or that my time (energy didn't matter). The simple truth is that is does! A dear friend of mine posted about taking care of others first, your friends will be there but when you take care of yourself first, they leave. I had the opportunity to discuss this with him more and we both have had the same realization that we'd rather have a few close friends who lifted our energy than a bunch who took away from it. With this knowledge, I'm finally standing up for myself and I've been taking time away from those who take my energy (time) for granted.
We have the notion in this country that taking time for ourselves is selfish. I've learned that there is a difference between caring for your energy and actual selfishness. Caring for yourself first, listening to your energy level and living from a space where you're cared for physically, mentally and emotionally is not a luxury but a necessity. We can't fully give to our life, family, friends and the world when we depleted, tired, on edge and feeling off balance. When we evaluate our time and make changes, we conserve our energy and bring in allowance to do things that help us become whole. This is self care and self love which you can never take to too much time for!
Now selfishness is a downward spiral that can lead some to addiction, co-dependency and other unhealthy issues. When a person is selfish, it means they're always searching to find their inner self in the exterior world. They'll use anyone or anything to find a moment of content or happiness and then start the process all over again. This need for exterior gratification leads them to take from others around them without noticing how their actions affect those they believe to care for. They'll do anything they want in that moment until something better comes that reaches them to the goal of quick enlightenment. This cycle will continue until you decide to stop it and no longer allow them to feed off your energy. Sadly, they will forever be on this journey and will take you along for the ride!
So now I ask you, do you feel the same way? What changes can you make right now to harness your energy? Dream big, small or in between but this is your life, your energy and your time to live the life you will!